Weight lifting and my sore body

Well I had started lifting weights yesterday and well to say the least, my body is a bit sore this morning. You really do find muscles you never thought you had. I'm not in terrible agony or anything, its acutally a nice feeling knowing I'm starting to help this body of mine, find the skinny girl inside!

Swim Wear

So Kyle sent me this link:
http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://img.alibaba.com/photo/11615055/Sexy_2_Pieces_Mesh_Lingerie_Slingshot.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.alibaba.com/catalog/11615055/Sexy_2_Pieces_Mesh_Lingerie_Slingshot.html&h=717&w=538&sz=54&hl=en&start=1&um=1&tbnid
And said he thought I should be one of these for a swimsuit!
Well we were laughing hystarically when it dawned on me, I have never worn a 2 piece swimsuit
When I was younger I had a cute little body, why didn't I have the confidence then?
So my new goal as of today, is to be able to confidently wear a two piece swimsuit!
Its funny how we let image get in our way of things! You have so much to learn when you are young.

Morning Bliss

4:30am rolls around and I get up for the wonderful morning exercise. Things went great, started lifting weights today! Go home get ready, and I start preparing some soup for the crock-pot. I finally realize what time it is, so I put my Eggo's in the toaster oven, put the syrup in the microwave. I set off to find my cell phone and get ready to head out the door. I hear a huge bang? Confused yet not seeing anything continue about my business, the Eggo's are complete and I go to get the syrup, low and behold, I blew the thing up! What a mess! After like 10 minutes of cleaning, and the fact I will smell the entire rest of the day like I bathed in Pancake syrup, I finally get out the door for work! Oh what a day, I do have to say though you should try the Eggo waffles, 2 @ 170 calories, and sugar free syrup 35 calories per 1/4 cup and I don't even come close to using that much, puts you a good breakfast under 200 calories, its a nice change up from the continual daily feed of cereal and milk. Have an amazing day!

2 lbs. Lost

Well I did the dreadful weigh in this morning and I had lost 2 lbs. Although not as much as I hoped, it has given me more energy to press on.

Discouraged

Well I worked out for 50min. this morning, admiring all the skinny girls there, hoping to be one of them someday soon! LOL! Felt alright, until I went and finally weighed in. I don't think the scales work right at all, not just because I don't like what they said! So I knew I was around 175-80 but to my horror, I weighed in at 184. How terrible is that? And how terrible that I let myself get this way! I'm a little discouraged this morning, but I have to snap out of it! I didn't gain this weight over night, I'm not going to loose it that quickly! It just would be nice to see some progress, but I guess not all progress shows up on the scales! A lot of times you gain before you loose? I'm praying for that. So I"m going to try hard to be positive today! What else can I do!

Have to read!

To all the women out there who need a good laugh! And are having a hard time losing weight, I think I laughed so hard I cried!

A WOMAN'S WEEK AT THE GYM> This is dedicated to everyone who ever attempted to get into a regular> workout routine.>> Dear Diary,> For my birthday this year, my daughter (the dear) purchased a week of> personal training at the local health club for me.>> Although I am still in great shape since being a high school football> cheerleader 43 years ago, I decided it would be a good idea to go ahead> and give it a try.>> I called the club and made my reservations with a personal trainer named> Belinda, who identified herself as a 26-year-old aerobics instructor and> model for athletic clothing and swim wear.>> My daughter seemed pleased with my enthusiasm to get started! The club> encouraged me to keep a diary to chart my progress.>> MONDAY:> Started my day at 6:00 a.m. Tough to get out of bed, but found it was well> worth it when I arrived at the health club to find Belinda waiting for me.> She is something of a Greek goddess -- with blonde hair, dancing eyes and> a dazzling white smile. Woo Hoo!! Belinda gave me a tour and showed me the> machines. I enjoyed watching the skillful way in which she conducted her> aerobics class after my workout today. Very inspiring! Belinda was> encouraging as I did my sit-ups, although my gut was already aching from> holding it in the whole time she was around. This is going to be a> FANTASTIC week!>> TUESDAY:> I drank a whole pot of coffee, but I finally made it out the door.>> Belinda made me lie on my back and push a heavy iron bar into the air then> she put weights on it! My legs were a little wobbly on the treadmill, but> I made the full mile. Belinda's rewarding smile made it all worthwhile. I> feel GREAT! It's a whole new life for me.>> WEDNESDAY:> The only way I can brush my teeth is by laying the toothbrush on the> counter and moving my mouth back and forth over it. I believe I have a> hernia in both pectorals. Driving was OK as long as I didn't try to steer> or stop. I parked on top of a GEO in the club parking lot.>> Belinda was impatient with me, insisting that my screams bothered other> club members. Her voice is a little too perky for early in the morning and> when she scolds, she gets this nasally whine that is VERY annoying. My> chest hurt when I got on the treadmill, so Belinda put me on the stair> monster. Why the Hell would anyone invent a machine to simulate an> activity rendered obsolete by elevators? Belinda told me it would help me> get in shape and enjoy life. She said some other shit too.>> THURSDAY:> Belinda was waiting for me with her vampire-like teeth exposed as her> thin, cruel lips were pulled back in a full snarl. I couldn't help being a> half an hour late, it took me that long to tie my shoes.>> Belinda took me to work out with dumbbells. When she was not looking, I> ran and hid in the restroom. She sent another skinny bitch to find me.> Then, as punishment, she put me on the rowing machine -- which I sank.>> FRIDAY:> I hate that bitch Belinda more than any human being has ever hated any> other human being in the history of the world. Stupid, skinny, anemic,> anorexic little cheerleader. If there was a part of my body I could move> without unbearable pain, I would beat her with it.>> Belinda wanted me to work on my triceps. I don't have any triceps! And if> you don't want dents in the floor, don't hand me the damned barbells or> anything that weighs more than a sandwich. The treadmill flung me off and> I landed on a health and nutrition teacher.>> Why couldn't it have been someone softer, like the drama coach or the> choir director or a baker?>> SATURDAY:> Belinda left a message on my answering machine in her grating, shrilly> voice wondering why I did not show up today. Just hearing her made me want> to smash the machine with my planner. However, I lacked the strength to> even use the TV remote and ended up catching eleven straight hours of the> Weather Channel.>> SUNDAY:> I'm having the church van pick me up for services today so I can go and> thank GOD that this week is over. I will also pray that next year my> daughter (the little shit) will choose a gift for me that is fun -- like a> root canal or a hysterectomy.>> I still say if God had wanted me to bend over, he would have sprinkled the> floor with diamonds!!!

Surviving the weekends

I do so good during the week, and come Friday or Saturday night I think I need to go out, granted I ALWAYS share a dinner w/ Kyle, but still! And I never have cokes during the week, well hardly and then, Saturday hits and I think I need one! LOL! I'll never figure myself out. I didn't do too terrible, worked out a good 50 min. on Saturday, so hopefully that worked off my Mexican food from Friday night! So after all that, Kyle tells me this morning he has lost 3 lbs. this last week! I'm super proud of him!!!! Guess how much I lost? I don't know because I didn't weigh! Am I a dork or what? So guess what my big little self will be doing in the morning at the gym, weighing myself! And despite feeling better in my jeans this week, I'm having a fat day, hate those and I'm hungry.....like this body needs anymore food! Well it may have been affected by the Schwan's man throwing him wonderful looking catalog around as well, so I settled for the fish and vegetables, when I wanted the ice cream and hot wings (they looked so good and you know Superbowl is coming up! lol) But I held strong, this moment of weakness to shall pass! Until next time! Car

Working out

Well I have been able to dedicated 45 to 60 min. of cardio almost everyday. I am very determined to reach my goal. Although I still haven't managed to pick up a scale yet. So I could so be losing pounds and I have no way to record that! I bought the Wu Yi Tea that Oprah and Rachel Ray endorse, its supposed to help in all kinds of ways, including weight lostt. I think it tastes quite nasty, but I feel like it really does help. We'll see though....! I went to work out mad a Kyle this morning, I think it may help to have some anger to release, I got a really great work out. I'm trying to rearrange my schedule so I can work out at the gym each morning. When I have to clean in the morning I do my workout video, its still a great work out though! Just trying to find a happy balance you know? Its rough, I have way too many things on my plate sometimes. But so far I am proud of myself, and Kyle. He has been going to the gym as well, doing a rev class in the mornings with his Dad and Kel. They are training for a race, good for them huh!

My Weigh In Picture

So last night I took my weigh in picture or the "before"shot. OMG! Can I say that directly after taking the sports bra pic, I went and worked out, hard cardio for 45 minutes. It has so motivated me even more than before. The sad thing is I have this skinny girl living inside me, I just woke up one day chubby, how did that happen? Well obviously not over night, and I know they all say you don't put on the weight all at once, you can't expect to lose it all at once, although a skinny pill does sound great! If there was such a think, unfortunately I think I'm going to have to rely on the old fashion perseverance!

Goal One

15 lbs by my birthday, March 24th! Basically 3 months, average 5 lbs a month, it may drop faster, who knows, but I want a realistic approach and develop a better healthier lifestyle.

Pictures of me

So this is me on New Years Eve, with Kyle and Alli! I'll have to get one by myself for the offical start of the new me. So this is where I am at, and 30 lbs from now, I'll be were I want to be. Not to be super skinny, but to feel better about me. I've always been about average and to be completely honest the super skinny thing isn't the best look either, I'd rather to have something to hold on to, not break! So I'll do the big weigh in tomorrow! I don't have a scale, ( the dreaded scale!)

Were do I begin?

Well I am 25 years old and I have talked about losing weight forever! Well as I am coming upon my 26th big one, I decided that saying I'm going to lose weight and actually doing it are two different things. I don't want to waste away my 20's as a chubby girl! I know in January everyone resolves do change, and well what makes me any different? I am hoping that this blog will help me keep myself accountable to not only myself but to all my readers as well! LOL! I just read the half my size People magazine edition and a girl had lost 180 lbs blogging her weight! Well its worth a try and all I want to loose is 30 lbs! I told my mother this is my year, and it will be! I have to have faith and believe that I can accomplish those things in which I set my mind to!!!